Friday, August 3, 2012

Guess what...I'm Pregnant!

I have the craziest most bizarre story, so in  my last post I wrote about it coming up to 2  years since I was raped. On the day of the 2nd anniversary we found out I'm pregnant!

I was dreading the day and thinking, I just want it to be over, I was expecting a bad nights sleep the whole lot and I was feeling pretty down about it until.....

Myself and himself were talking and I realized I was late, I put it down to the stress of the time of year as I could feel my period coming, I had a test in my room so I said to him will I take one for the laugh, he had never seen one work before so he said yes, both of us completely relaxed as we were 100% sure I wasn't. So off I went and peed on a stick and within seconds it came up positive, I was so shocked I just showed it to him, he thought I was joking! I made him go and buy another 2 tests and I took them and they were positive.

I still couldn't believe it the next morning so I took another 2 and they were positive!! I went to the doctor and she confirmed it.

It is very very early days but I can't believe I got such happy news on the 2nd year anniversary of what was the end of my life as I knew it.

I can't help but feel this is a sign even though I know it's early days, I don't want to get ahead of myself but it just feels so foreign and overwhelming to have nice things happen for a change.

I'm so used to things being horrible that I'm scared something will go wrong. I'm trying to be positive and happy, please god if there is one let this be the blessing I so want it to be.

27 comments:

  1. Dear Lizzie,

    I don't have a blog or even know much about how they work, however I was looking on google for support groups and counselling in my local area, when I came accross your blog.

    I haven't been able to read everything you have wrote, but what I have read has touched more than my heart. I wont bore you with any details but I was also raped, 1 year, 3 months and 4 days ago today. I think a lot of people must have passed judgement on how I am coping with what has happened as reading what you have wrote has made me feel like its okay to feel what I am feeling / what I have felt. So for that I simply want to say thankyou. Thank you for having the courage to tell the world, because in doing so you have helped me.

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  2. Dear Lizzie-

    How wonderful for you! Life goes on and even defilement can fade into the past! Now you have a new bright beginning that will greatly overshadow the harm you endured.

    Just think of all those times you felt giving up and not facing life would be a solution, and know that everything you endured brought you to the joy you can feel today!

    The lesson we learn along the way is that no matter what we face in life, there is always the possibility of joy coming our way tomorrow.

    Congratulations! I will pray for a healthy, happy baby for you!

    Sincerely,
    Joyce

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  3. That is so wonderful and im really happy for you

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  4. What wonderful news - I am so happy to hear about your pregnancy! Congratulations to the two of you!

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  5. aww this made me tear up... I am sooo happy for you! I wish u the happiest healthiest pregnancy anyone could ever have. You deserve it and that beautiful baby. You inspire me sooo much. I love your blog and I wish your family the best.

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  6. Congratulations!!! I'm very happy for YOU. A new life a lovely new future for you! You're new beginnings. May God Bless you and your baby. :)

    Love
    SusieU_11

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  7. <3 love and light. Thanks for the blog.

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  8. ... The very best to you, Lizzie. Congratulations on your pregnancy!

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  9. Congrads. Hope everything goes great for you.

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  11. Thanks everyone for your lovely comments I both scared and delighted!!!

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  12. Congratulations. I hope you always remain happy.

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  13. I am 16 and we and never victims we are always survivors!

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  14. That is very good news, Lizzie! Congrats! You should definitely try to be positive and happy always. That’s very important for a pregnant woman. You should avoid the stress and negative energies that may you’re your way while you’re pregnant. There may be challenges, but try to overcome them with a positive outlook. It will help a lot with the healthy development of your baby.

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  15. Congratulations even though I am slightly late and here is a little present for you http://mentalinnorfolk.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/mein-liebster-award-from-behind-smile.html

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  17. I just found your blog today. Thank you for sharing. I hope you are well.

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  18. Ah piss off, no one cares mate.

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  19. Hi Lizzie. My name is Staci. I came across your blog a couple days ago. I have never been a rape victim. But I am currently casted in a musical called, "The Spitfire Grill" and I play a role of a girl named Percy Talbott. She has been abused and raped by her stepfather; she ends up killing him and going to prison. The musical is about her finding how to love and forgive herself. I will never fathom the pain and suffering you and Percy went through, but I have shed many tears for you and her. I wanted you to know that you are an amazing woman, so beautiful and strong. And as I act and sing my heart out on that stage, I will be thinking of you, Lizzie. I hope you are happy.

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  20. Congratulations Lizzie.
    I hope in a few months you'll post again to let us all know how it's going.
    I only found your blog about a week ago, so I got the full journey in one shot. That inspired me to hope that there is a light at the end of my own long tunnel...

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  21. I really need help I woke up with no clothes on at a frat I remember talking to a guy at a party the night before but everything after that is foggy. I don't know what to do I feel like I might have had sex but it's hard to tell I can't remember what happened

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  22. Congratulations! You are a very,very,very strong woman.

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  23. Hi there, thanks for your wonderful blog, its weird as I only stumbled on it today, I say its weird as its very much like my own blog about my experience so I just wanted to say hello and I hope everything is ok with you and your new family. Feel free to read my blog on survivingrape.blogspot.co.uk or don't because you are fulfilling a new and rewarding life. You are very brave and I admire you sister!! Thanks again for the read. All the Best

    Bethany B.

    xx

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  24. Lizzie please contact me: amiejamie999@gmail.com. Blessings.

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  25. You are really brave and i admire you. You should read a rape experience i wrote on my blog. Writing the story made me 'feel' how gruesome rape is. It brought me to the knowing. I'm glad that you have decided to keep going.

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