Am having the worst panic attack, writing always makes me feel better so I'm going to write until calm is restored. I feel like I can't breathe. It's the middle of the night. I can't sleep. I'm in bed. If I lie on my side I'm getting flashes of lying on my side for a moment after it happened. If I lie on my back I can feel him on me. I feel like I'm back there. But I'm not I'm safe so just breathe. I'm safe. I'm at home, I'm not alone. He is not here. It's over. I'm safe now. This is a new feeling. The tears are pouring down my face. Memories are just flashing through my mind and I feel like I am back there. I feel like screaming, I didn't scream that night but I feel like screaming now. I can feel everything he did to me. I can almost feel the pain of all of it. I feel sick.
Calm down it's over, your safe. Just breathe. It's ok. Your going to be ok. He can't hurt you anymore. You got away, your safe, it's over now. You survived. Just breathe and think good thoughts.
((((Lizzie)))) I am sorry you are feeling this way. Yes, you are safe. I am here listening.....
ReplyDeleteit will be okay .. i know these are rough, but you are safe now . you can get through this .. deep breaths..
ReplyDeleteCourageous blog!! Read the book "Don't Panic"- it's great!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for your lovely comments everyone. I really appreciate them, it's so comforting to know there are people out there who care and who understand x
ReplyDeleteI just read your entire blog from the very first post and I'm sitting here bawling. thank you so much, its so comforting to know I'm not alone. its like you put my thoughts into words.
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