7 Months since it happened

Today its 7 months since it happened. I don't know how I feel, much the same as I did last week or last month. Things haven't gotten any easier. I am still having awful trouble sleeping and when I do I have really bad nightmares, I cant function at work properly and have constant cuts on the inside of my mouth from biting it in my sleep and jaw pain from tension, Im feeling really sorry for myself today and I dont care I dont have the energy today to fight this overwhelming sadness I feel. Wow these are some depressing words I never used to be like this, I miss the old happy me.