Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Oooh here comes the real anger!

I am feeling so angry! Like really angry! I want to beat someone up or do some damage or scream or something. I'm typing and my fingers are banging the keys! Oh how I've longed to feel like this. To not feel logical or not analise or think to much but to just f'ing feel something.

And this time I'm not angry at myself. I'm angry at him and the DPP and the stupid stupid stupid justice system and that evil evil man who hurt me so much and hurt my family and my friends. A man who has done so much damage to me. A man who violated me and degraded me and stole my dignity. A man who made me blame myself, hate myself and hurt myself and got away with all of it. Free to do it again.

I am absolutely raging today. How f'ing dare he do this to me. I didn't deserve that. I'm worth more that to be treated like that. Who did he think he was. AAaaaaaggggggggggggghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like getting a hatchet to chop some wood or something only I've no hatchet or no wood so I'll go to plan B and kick a football against the wall out in the garden.

I'm am soooooooo ANGRY. Who the hell did he think he was treating another human being like that. He's not human, he's scum. The scum of the earth. Scum!


  1. It's kind of funny! I've never felt this angry before!

  2. I hear you. I think anger is such an important emotion in the healing process. It was a turning point for me - when I realized that asshole was the one to blame. I would tear paper. Shred it. It helped.