Tuesday, August 23, 2011

What is going on with me?

I don't know what's going on with me the past couple of days but I'm feel so anxious and stressed. I feel like there is a huge pressure in my chest and don't understand why. I feel scared and vulnerable. I feel like I felt just after the attack. Like I'm locked in my own world of fear and panic and I don't know how to get out of it. I just can't shake this feeling and I don't know what it is.

I just don't know how much more I can take. I feel like all the strength I've built up over the past several months is being drained away. I don't know how to work through this feeling to get rid of it. I feel stuck.

It just seems to  be getting worse lately and I'm feeling too overwhelmed. I don't know what to do. I can't wait for therapy this week. I feel like I'm going backwards. I hope this doesn't last.


  1. You will be okay...to me this sounds a little like PTSD. Sometimes, it is like a roller coaster ride. One momenet you feel okay, then suddenly you feel as if your world is falling apart. It can be very painful. I am glad you are going to therapy. It is good to talk about it. You have been wounded and it takes time for these wounds to heal. But, you are on your way...so DO NOT GIVE UP. Hang in there and take care.

    Peace, Nico

  2. This does sound like PTSD or at minimum panic attacks. Sometimes there are triggers that we aren't even aware that could be triggers which will bring up this type of anxiety and feeling you are experiencing.

    Breathe. . . deep breaths. Remember where you are right now. Get familiar with your surroundings and ground yourself in the fact that at this moment you are safe. That is what helps me when feelings like that have risen.

  3. I hope you are feeling better today! Take care.


  4. Just to say, there is nothing wrong with you. It is normal to go two steps forward then one back. I woke the other night with overwhelming fear, I don't know why but I know the mind finds its own way to release the pressure. I wish I could hug you, I know thats all I need sometimes. Glad to hear you are having therapy, it will help. m4j x