Sunday, September 25, 2011

Dealing with the normal stuff

One thing that has really been tough to understand over the last year is my reaction to normal situations. For example work at the moment is a bit stressful between workload and a change in managers and some friction with people in work I find that I am extremely stressed at the situation. I'm having awful nightmares and am back to grinding my teeth in my sleep and have really bad jaw tension pain.

Before the rape a situation like this would stress me out but wouldn't affect me as badly as it is now. I'm finding it very difficult to de-stress after work and it's all beginning to take it's toll on me. I like to as best I can keep what I'm going through in my personal life out of my work life it's already been affected enough but it seems that  these days I can't seem to.

I'm worried that this will be my reaction to any kind of normal stress now. I used to be really good and being under pressure and dealing with stressful situations but now it seems that I can't handle a normal stressful situation anymore. I wonder if it will be like this forever?

4 comments:

  1. I think you are a very brave to have gone what you have gone through and still be here trying to have a normal life today. I think time heals all. My heart goes out to you & I wish you the best of luck with everything.

    -Mia xo
    http://naturezfinest.blogspot.com/

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  2. Thank you for sharing your voice on such a terrible thing. I am truly sorry for what has happened to you! Safe hugs.

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  3. Thanks for the lovely supportive words x

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  4. Just came back by to give you another safe hug....

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