Tuesday, July 19, 2011
I found him
I find it hard to type the R word. I still can't say that it happened to me. Anyway, the guy who did this to me we'll call him Freddy well he was a person I had just met. A friend of a friend and for some reason I can't seem to remember his face very clearly. When it first happened we were trying to get as much information on him as possible so myself and my family would do internet searches on him. We were never able to find any information on him. He has no facebook or anything like that. I'm sure everyone else stopped searching for him but I never stopped.
I kind of became obsessed with googling his name every other day to see if I could find him. I found a couple of bits around his college work but couldn't find anything else until today. Today I found a photo of him and can finally see his face clearly. He's real, he exists. I clicked on a page tonight and a picture of him popped up. Right there in my face. I'll never forget his eyes they have haunted my dreams. I don't know how to feel but somehow it makes him more real. I don't know whether that's a good think or a bad thing.