Saturday, July 2, 2011
11 Months since it happened
It's now 11 months since it happened. This is the last big one before we hit the year mark. I can barely remember the last 11 months. It all feels like some really long nightmare. I wish it was. I found out that my rapist is living the life, well for some. It makes me so mad. I can't believe it's almost a year. I've been off work for the last 3 months. I start back on Wednesday, I am petrified. What if I go back and I find I still can't cope with it. It's not like I can take another 3 months off. It will be the end of the road. I have a lot to prove to myself and those I work with. It's a lot of pressure, another battle. Maybe if I just lie down it will all go away.