Saturday, June 4, 2011

Confusing day

Today is a confusing day, I'm feeling a bit better lately but I feel quite angry at the same time, at the moment I'm really angry that I can't get justice for what happened to me. It was really wrong what he did, he has destroyed me and nobody is going to stand up and say, yes this was wrong and we aren't going to let him get away with but nobody is. How can that be?

Do I not deserve justice? Am I not worthy of it? There are so so many things wrong with the justice system it's scary. This is something that I am really struggling with right now and I don't know how to get past it, how to accept it and how to move on. If I can't face him how do I get closure? Is there ever any closure?

5 comments:

  1. Nobody can tell you what will happen, or what to feel.
    Howeever, all feelings change, unfold, shift, they are not static.
    Anger is healthy if it is placing the blame where it belongs, with the perpetrator.
    You are worthy of healing of turning this into a triumph-the best payback you can give is to show him you can win and that you know how to live.
    He is a dead soul.
    @sheepfoldcarer

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  2. You are loveable. You do Matter. You do make a difference.

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  3. im sorry. i hope things well work out. i think its late for me because its been over ten years and i was just molested

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  4. Thanks Sharon,

    Hi Tara,

    It's never too late for anyone to stand up for themselves, I'm sorry for what happened to you, please don't see it as 'just molested' what he did was wrong just like what my attacker did was wrong. The two can't be compared. I'm glad you are using your blog as a way to voice your feelings, I find that it helps me.

    Please believe and tell yourself that you are worthy of happiness and security and feeling safe. I can't imagine what it must be like having to be around your step dad. I think you are braver and stronger than you realise.

    Here any time,

    Lizzie x

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  5. thanks you can email me any time. ill send you my email. its taracl1987@yahoo.com

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