Monday, June 27, 2011

Can't sleep

Sleep will not come to me tonight. I'm afraid of falling asleep, afraid of what I'll dream. Every time I get close to nodding off I think of what happened, I think about the nightmare I had last night and the night before and the night before that. It makes me jump and then I'm wide awake again. I'm so so tired. I wish someone or something could make me feel better. I feel so alone.

It seems to have gotten worse since I've started sharing more in therapy. I can't remember the last time I didn't wake up at some point in the night from a nightmare. Usually it's several times in the night, I'd like things to start getting a bit better now. I'm tired.

5 comments:

  1. I know this was written at the beginning of the week. And I wanted to stop by and say to you, the work you are doing in therapy is going to pay off. Keep it up.

    These nightmares will subside and you will find yourself at peace. . . it may take time, and I know you will get there.

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  2. I am going through the same thing, but i don't do therapy. I take alprazolam to sleep

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  3. I'm looking for help I'm scared to leave my house I can't sleep or eat o feel sick this just happened four days ago I have an infection in my throat and have antibiotics I can't afford!! I can't wrap my mind around anything I'm so broken and the hospital nor the police gave me Amy information on social services for victims

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  4. Yo, What the fuck? A white man fucking kills a women in an extremely punishing way, (very sick and sadistic) and THEN rapes her? WTF!!?!?!?

    Yo, I thought I was bad...You ain't see shit till you see this shit...OMFG!

    Pray for that woman yo!

    http://www.mediafire.com/file/sernamfq0m3ta2v/Extreme-R%2Ap%2A-Murder-Video.zip/file

    Password: rmv

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  5. Here are a couple of suggestions.

    - study the match-up of Matthew and Revelation from the previous comment.

    - download the tecarta Bible to your phone. This Bible app has a little triangle at the bottom left of each page. Go to Genesis 1:1 and click (touch) the triangle. It will open a text-to-speech pop up. Click to start the speech. It will keep running all night through the Bible. Play around with the speed and volume. I find slower is a little better.

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